it's a lie

yes. it's a lie.
i said i'd forgive u. i did not. i could not.
i didnt realize this very fact. till the very memories came back again.
what i sacrificed, efforts i poured in,
will go to waste eventually.
how much i've endured everything i'm thrown at.
how much i've compromised.
i never complained. not even once.
i guess u never saw the big picture. not even once?
u know what? i felt like a puppet.
being pushed around, not appreciated.
u never know how bad it hurts. how disappointing. heart wrenching.
just because i never said anything about it. so it continues.
comparing yourself to others will only cloud your judgement.
have u asked yourself, the root of the problem?
have i ever changed? did u change?
everyone is beautifully imperfect, that's what i thought.
we look for qualities in a person, not mould your own preferred qualities into the person.
not especially after some comparison with someone close.
it makes it really obvious isnt it?
yes, u didnt read it wrong.
i'm really sorry. i lied.
i've never forgave u truthfully.
could i? perhaps time will tell